Another slow night/early morning. Perfect time for a confession!
I wrote songs all the time when I was younger, but they were awful because I can't make cohesive melodies or lyrics that make any semblance of sense. So once I hit ten or so, I finally realized that my talents just didn't lie in songmaking and never tried making a song from scratch again.
Except in late 2017.
I was taking a semester off after moving home, and in the ample free time I had, I'd been kicking around fulfilling Smol Peaches' dream of getting into Vocaloid. I woke up one morning with a melody in my head that I couldn't stop repeating, so I packed up, hiked to McDonald's in 20 degree (Fahrenheit) weather, found something called Online Sequencer (because I had no idea what a DAW was at the time and that was the first thing that came up when I Googled "online music maker), and spent the next week cranking out this.
I called it "Waltz of Indifference," and while making it, I crafted a story around it. Basically, the song centers around a serial heartbreaker and the newest object of his affections, who realizes that they (another man, in my mind, but I left it open to interpretation in the lyrics themselves) are about to be seduced and dropped; rather than resist or futilely chase after him, the seducee allows themselves to be swept off their feet, but they vow to make sure the heartbreaker doesn't leave the affair unscathed. In the end, they're both deeply hurt, but the seducee feels a hollow sense of victory at having finally broken the heartbreaker's heart.
I never did finish the lyrics... I think I got the first verse and chorus done, but like I said, I'm not a lyricist. Five months after finishing it, I got Oliver, and I tried making him sing it, but it went waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay out of his vocal range (come to think of it, I'm not sure who COULD sing the chorus... it FLIES.) so I quietly shelved it and forgot about it.
Either yesterday or the day before,
@patuk and I were discussing original songs, and I remembered it existed again. I was able to find my Online Sequencer account, and mercifully, the song was still saved.
I'd like to finish it someday, but truthfully that probably won't happen. Anyway, the instrumental is awfully choppy and grating, since it was made in a fairly primitive desktop piano roll.
