I wasn't born in the right era, in the right area, with the right body, the necessary amount of people giving good vibes and being able to spend time with me, I feel desperately old, my creativity runs into more and more blocks because I'm exhausted mentally and physically and i'm awfully stressed out, I cannot even make my songs get real and live, everyone but me has their turn no matter the amount of effort and even, dare I say, the quality because I've enough to be muted and seen as a big baby unable to do anything good, I want to be an artist, I want to be that singer you'll love and want to take model after because she carries all the qualities, being Miss Perfect because you only want perfect girls who never get breakdowns and manage everything. And I want it now because I feel like there'll never be any resit session if I miss it. Otherwise it's not worth living.