In three years I lost most of my ability to form memories, but apparently I can finish songs sometimes. Like most of my songs, I started writing this one in 2018. Recently I considered using Daina in this one, but I knew if I didn't upload it now, it would take me months or years to remember that I should probably upload it. I actually named it Three Years' Desperation because the song sounds like it's desperate to not be sad and because it took three years for me to finish it, but it also fits with my health going downhill in the past three years especially.