My first counseling session went well I think? Got another one next week this one focused on a more get to know me and quick chat. He's thinking my depression is an effect of my anxiety and low self esteem :x hes got me doing a counteracting? exercise when my mind wanders into the list of reasons everyone hates me to try and help alleviate the thoughts. Less see how this goes I'm hopeful tho!
Follow up to my previous rant so like dear diary I legit have no clue why I have been in this depression but its been going on for a few years now I've been trying to stick to Health care and convince myself that I will get out of it but I never do and it is taking a toll and I feel like I should cut my losses and quit and enroll in college but at the same time I feel guilty for having these thoughts so nothing ever comes from them and its just been a compounding weight for a while and I have no clue. I did love health care when I first started it and thought it was my passion but I guess I am burnt out. Anyway sorry for depressing wall of words
Sorry to go ranty rn but gotta treat this like a diary for a moment but I am at a lack of sleep rn with my mental state legit crashing from isolation over COVID now facing the fear that I very well can catch it now that I am on the Covid unit at work and I legit have no clue what to do right now .-.