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Maribelle
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  • Really need to like focus on packing rn moving in 10 days and have a grand total of one box packed :x
    My first counseling session went well I think? Got another one next week this one focused on a more get to know me and quick chat. He's thinking my depression is an effect of my anxiety and low self esteem :x hes got me doing a counteracting? exercise when my mind wanders into the list of reasons everyone hates me to try and help alleviate the thoughts. Less see how this goes I'm hopeful tho!
    Maribelle
    Maribelle
    Thank you! Yeah I'm hopeful that this will help waiting to see if he recommends meds rn but would rather not get on them if I could help it :xinhua_lili:
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    That's understandable! Know that there's no shame in meds though. Without meds, I wouldn't be here; if you need 'em, you need 'em! Either way, we're here to support you!
    Maribelle
    Maribelle
    Yeah I have no qualms with them my mom and sister are both on antidepressants I've just never been one for meds even pain pills so I shirk away from them usually :x
    Follow up to my previous rant so like dear diary I legit have no clue why I have been in this depression but its been going on for a few years now I've been trying to stick to Health care and convince myself that I will get out of it but I never do and it is taking a toll and I feel like I should cut my losses and quit and enroll in college but at the same time I feel guilty for having these thoughts so nothing ever comes from them and its just been a compounding weight for a while and I have no clue. I did love health care when I first started it and thought it was my passion but I guess I am burnt out. Anyway sorry for depressing wall of words
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    Leon
    Leon
    Healthcare is a difficult area of work -- especially right now! If you've been feeling this way for years now, it may just not be for you. Sometimes it happens, things don't end up being what we though it would, and we have to find a new path. That's a daunting thought for sure, but it may be for the best, for your mental and physical health. I do wish you all the best in figuring things out though :(
    Maribelle
    Maribelle
    To both I appreciate the thoughts I did turn in my two weeks notice in today after I had a breakdown in my car on the phone with my mom I decided it was for the best I have my doubts about finishing the two weeks out tho my mom called my sister who then set me up a zoom appointment with a doctor to talk to about my depression and I did start the enrollment for the fall semester no clue what I will study tho gonna get through basics I guess cause I'm not too great at deciding what to do with my life I'm realizing gotta set up a zoom call with them too now tho all in all I feel like I am broken but maybe things will end up getting better.
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    Leon
    Leon
    Best of luck with your doctor's appointment! From what I hear, medicines for depression and other mental illnesses can take a while to kick in, find the right dose, the right prescription, etc, but it's well worth it once you've found the right recipe for you. I wish you the very best with it!!
    As for classes, definitely take your time to think about it while getting some gen eds out of the way! The first few semesters are pretty interchangeable in most majors :)
    Sorry to go ranty rn but gotta treat this like a diary for a moment but I am at a lack of sleep rn with my mental state legit crashing from isolation over COVID now facing the fear that I very well can catch it now that I am on the Covid unit at work and I legit have no clue what to do right now .-.
    Leon
    Leon
    Oh gosh. Do take as many precautions as you can to stay safe, and try to relax in what free time you can get... Stressful times indeed! :(
    JS The OST for Stella Glow is not talked about enough Reddened Galaxy is too great to ignore
    Can someone tell me how to make vocal fry sound not disgusting in v5???? Like as in not a burp x.x
    So I am curious does anyone think the new v5s all have some weird noises going on when they sing or is it just me :x
    Can't stop thinking about the time in the sims when I made the bathroom door a beaded curtain... I legit feel bad about this still .-.
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