Like, as a large-chested woman myself, this honest-to-God looks painful in a couple of places. I'd be doubled over regretting my life choices instead of dancing. Someone please get this poor sweet girl a bra with proper support.
I was really hoping my Imaginative Writing class would help me pinpoint my strengths and weaknesses and help me grow as a writer, but right now I'm just... I dunno. I'm feeling defeated.
We shared our poems in class today. We decided we'd share and then let the class discuss. Discussions for each ran about ten to fifteen minutes until we got to mine.
I read it. One guy said the voice was very clearly mine, which I don't know whether that's a good or a bad thing, but I'll take it. One girl said I italicized a word that didn't need italicized. That's fair. I do love overusing italics. The professor pointed out a glaring logical fallacy at the end of the poem. Yeah, I'd overlooked it, that's fair, the whole thing's stronger without it.
This was said over the course of about two minutes. Then we moved on to the next person, whose poem we spent well over ten minutes discussing.
I don't know. Is my writing that bad? Bad enough that there's not much more to do than point out the more glaring issues and then just leave the rest alone because no amount of critique or feedback will save it? Is that why no one can tell me what's wrong with my writing: because my writing in general is what's wrong, and there's no fixing it, no hope of turning it into something readable, much less enjoyable? The thought wouldn't hurt as much were it not for the implication that my one lifelong passion is nothing more than a hopeless endeavor, leading me nowhere after twenty years of sinking so much effort into it.
As of today, I’ve been using Haiyi for a month! Happy Monthiversary, baby!
To make matters even better, my professor declared a Mental Health Day and let us out of class 40 minutes early, so, lacking much else to do but go home, I went into the local Office Depot, where I found - at long last - a perfect set of bookends!!! Now I don’t have to keep my boxes awkwardly propped up with lotion bottles.
This has been weighing on my mind for a while, so I just wanna share it.
I headcanon that Haiyi's a very kind girl with the best of intentions that really cares about everyone's well being. She's also... not... particularly bright. Being the protector of the ocean, birthed of the sea itself, water and various sea creatures frequently come to her rescue because she keeps doing really stupid things in pure oblivion. And since they're unfailingly loyal to her, she never realizes just how dangerous some of the things she does is, so she just keeps on doing them.
For example, she loves diving into bodies of water from great heights. In most of these cases, the heights are so high that an average person's spine would snap like a twig upon contact with the water. So the water has to adjust its molecular structure and make itself softer so she doesn't instantly die.
That said, she's also fully capable of commanding the sea at her will (or, well, any body of water), like a waterbender or something. Her primary home is located in the East China Sea, and when she wants to bring someone there with her, she creates a bubble around them that both enables them to breathe and protects them from deepening water pressures.
The water is also her primary source of travel. Every so often she'll meet up with one/some/all of her sisters, and she'll reach them by swimming into whichever river will get her from the sea inland fastest. She's an absurdly fast swimmer and takes hours to tire.
She's also a major recycling advocate, for obvious reasons.
I'm probably gonna wait until I've got one of Haiyi's sisters to fully invest in that cover. (She'd sound fine singing it herself, but it's supposed to be a duet, and she just... doesn't sound good with any of the DVs/UTAUs I've tried.) Still, after such a stressful hunt, I'm so happy I've got the off-vocal for it! I'll at least be able to hang onto it.
Now to give Haiyi a much-needed rest and get back to my Japanese covers.
Mondays have apparently become Weekly Bitch at Darby Because of Her Unemployedness Day, so I'm trying to turn it into Weekly Darby Works Her Ass Off Harder Than Usually to Stop Being Unemployed Day. Of the ten stores I physically walked into in the past two hours to get my mother off my ass, I got two "No, we're not hiring, get out of here you're holding up the line"s, one "Yes, we're hiring, feel free to send an application!", and seven "Eh, go ahead and apply, worst we can say is no"s. So I'm hoping this is, if nothing else, a(nother) good start.
My local Walmart's stepping up their game! They got a whole bunch of new Naturals in. My personal favorites include a facial cream that seems to be a cheap (as in, a fourth of the price) dupe of Ole Henriksen's C-Rush Moisturizer (which is heavenly and smells like a Creamsicle) and an argan oil conditioner bar (whose one and only questionable ingredient is palm oil - no SLS to be found, just palm, olive, argan, tea tree, water, and glycerin)!
I got the conditioner bar because my hair's got some serious issues. Here's hoping!
I really, REALLY like DV's method of inputting pitch bends (it's identical to CeVIO's - the only two synths I've used that have their shit fully together in that aspect). I just wish there were more VBs. Most of them, when I click on them on the DV wiki, just say "Upcoming" or "Canceled" or "Rumored".