For my birthday, Patuk made a video for me. It’s a seven-minute-long OliLen narrative using text-to-speech for all of the dialogue and I watch it at least once a week. I’m always crying with laughter within the first half-minute, even though I have the whole thing memorized by heart now.
Stress-buying skincare is second only to stress-buying vocalsynths when it comes to amping up serotonin production, I must say. I have so many VBs I wanna buy, but for now I'll settle for the Wild Dew Treatment Essence.
It’s not that I haven’t written in months; I’ve written a lot, but she’s the only one that’s seen any of it. We’ll discuss our OTPs, mutual and exclusive, and together or separate I’ll write out entire detailed scenarios. Last night I wrote the equivalent of three pages pitching a fic idea I have but “can’t make happen”, full of detail and a play-by-play of everything that happens, beginning to end.
But when I sit down to write, nothing comes out. It’s one thing when I write for her, and another thing entirely when I try to write for what I imagine to be a critical audience full of strangers that I’m desperate to please.
Sooooooooo new tactic: I’m taking those three pages and fleshing them out, and I’m going to imagine one and only one person is my audience: the girl I love. And I’ll see if I can make anything happen that way.
I complimented Neutrogena too quickly. It turns out PHA, even in low dosages, is NOT okay to use twice a day, though I wonder if that's more on me for believing Neutrogena against my better knowledge or on them for taking advantage of my lack of experience with PHA...
Luckily I caught it early. My face is sapped and I've got flaking on my chin and around my nose, but that's about it, so my barrier shouldn't be too bad. I just have to switch back to my HG cleanser and avoid exfoliation and maybe retinol for the next week or so, and I'll be good to go!
Let’s say you have a pairing you like with no established personality, as most vocalsynth characters don’t. But both members of this pairing are often portrayed a certain way. Now let’s say someone writes a fanfic for them, and they’ve switched roles; A has the mannerisms and behaviors usually assigned to B and vise-versa.
Would that be
1.) intriguing: it’s nice to get a new perspective on them!
2.) a turn-off: it’s hardly THEM, or at least not the way they usually are.
Neutrogena’s new cleansers have joined the Hydro Boost moisturizer in the category of “Rare victories for Neutrogena”. I love them all so much! I use the clay cleanser in the morning and the gel at night, though on some nights (like tonight) I’ll use the milky cleanser instead to give my skin some extra TLC. They smell like fresh aloe and are so gentle and aaaaaaaaah I love them! Plus they have a dosage of PHA safe enough to use daily, so it’s helping with my acne too!
I finally got a solid idea for a fic, but 1.) it’s for my BokuMono OTP and 2.) it’ll be Explicit-rated. Said fics tend to have more views but fewer comments, because everyone loves reading them but few will admit to it. Speaking from experience here, heh.
Still, I’ve been going back and reading all of my OliLen smut, trying to remember How To Smut. And... I miss my boys. I still love them, but I just can’t come up with ANYTHING for them. This is the first time I’ve felt truly inspired to write since April, and I haven’t written for OliLen since January.
I need to change my tagline. I don’t think I qualify as an OliLen author anymore. Not for lack of trying.
My Dermabond came off yesterday. The way my doctor talked about it, I assumed the wound would be all pretty and sealed up, like my scars after my surgeries last year. But...
Well, it’s still a wide-open, gaping stab wound, but it hasn’t bled anymore. I’ve just been keeping it dry and protected as best I can. When it’s wet it behaves like it did after the Dermabond came off, but when dry, it forms like... an internal scab. I’ve never had a wound this deep and this open so I don’t know how else to describe it.
The skin around the edges is sorta puffy and red, but it doesn’t look or even feel infected. Google isn’t much help; the recommendation I see most is “just leave it open and go about business like normal”, but like... I’ve been letting it air out today, but I picked up a tube of body wash wrong and the edge poked it, and I felt like I was about to die. Soooooooo it’s getting gauzed and bandaged for work tomorrow.
On another note, I’ve all but confirmed it cut deep enough to cause nerve damage. Whether it’s permanent or not remains to be seen. Luckily, given the positioning, it’s not debilitating! Just painful.
Everyone talks about how Rio/Rachel is a Claire ripoff, but Hart/Henry is literally just Bishonen Pete with a jacket and a fancier hat and like two other people have mentioned it. It’s been eight years, we need to talk about this.