i dont think i ever posted in this thread even after i joined so, might as well! its kind of an odd story related to an obscure fandom
basically years back (like 2014-15) i was mainly using tumblr and was actively in a fandom for some YTer (mainly minecraft). on tumblr, mostly at that time, "canon URLs" were a big deal to claim and have, they still are but it was crazier in those early fandom days. like, if someone had the user/URL of a character in a fandom it was cool and hard to do due to URL hoarding. anyways, this is relevant because in mthe obscure YT fandom i was in i had made my URL that of the YTers/characters they played. for a bit is was brucewillakers, lordwillakers, and then eventually nisovinsillusion. all from the same fandom btw...
i had that URL for some time but i think in 2016 i decided i needed to drop it. i still liked that fandom but it was becoming inactive and i also knew i didnt wanna hang on to a URL that was some other dude's username lol. i have had a lot of identity crisis's online mostly at that age so i had a hard time attaching to a new name. i was going by the name "Morey/Morei" and "Kurt". Morei more so as an online thing. i changed the spelling from Morei to Morey... and eventually Morry. i had the username "moreyytilatot" but it was a pure nonsense idea imo and i never liked it. in trying to change my URL/rebrand, i decided "fuck it, i'll just remove the "nisovin" from nisovinsillusion" and thus, morrysillusion was born.
i felt it was a placeholder but it grew on me. its oddly fitting for my situation mentally and it felt like a fun way to reference it while also just sounding kinda cool!