since i changed my major midway through the semester im having such a hard time finding motivation to finish my classes. they arent required anymore so im like "this feels pointless", but like, I don't wanna ruin my GPA. siiigh
i think sometimes people in the voice synth community forget that just because a song uses a voice synth doesnt mean the artist wrote the lyrics to be from the synth's point of view. sometimes artists write lyrics that are essentially words coming from their mouths, but for whatever reason they choose they have a synth sing it instead (like, for example, i can't sing). But it doesnt mean that everytime they make miku sing a song they wrote that they're writing about mikus thoughts and actions
now that ive changed my major away from graphic design i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders....no more worrying about a portfolio, no more 6 hours a week studio art classes, no more asynchronous online classes cause the department doesnt have enough staff, no more unhelpful advisors who forget i made appointments with them....ahhh college is looking up !
im so excited for christmas. i had a really really crummy halloween, so bad i came home and took down all my halloween decorations that night and was like "time to go christmas shopping!!" so i hope christmas doesn't let me down this year.
accidently ordered the wrong edition of a book and FOOLISHLY opened the package to see if there was a return label in there (there wasnt) so now instead of returning to sender for free I have to pay for shipping for my return sigh
im changing my major back to journalism, the graphic design program at my school gives me a headache. there's been so many complications with my portfolio process and it keeps holding me back by a year at a time and i dont wanna graduate in 2030 because of something that was out of my control :/
when i was young i just thought vocaloids would last forever, but now that we're getting to a point where some of them will run out of activation codes at some point, i guess i should start getting the older ones ive always wanted huh....
i saw the new halloween movie tonight but didnt really like it, which is a shame because the first halloween is one of my favorite movies, and I thought the 2018 one was actually pretty good. I found this one kinda boring tbh :/ Here's my slightly spoilery review of the movie (though to be honest, if youve seen one halloween youve seen them all, so is it really spoilers?) I definitely felt like the movie relied far too much on the shock value of blood and gore to make it "scary", but really it ended up just kind of making it cheesy. The original movie was able to make Michael intimidating, ominous and scary effortlessly. This new one lacks the atmosphere the first one has and tries to make up for it with over-the-top-gruesome deaths, but it ends up holding the film down.
Also, this movie kills off way too many characters. Like basically all of them. When you learn pretty quickly on to not get attached to any character because they won't last long, you end up having like no attachment to the movie and you just spend the entire runtime watching people you don't care about run around. It makes it so bland and predictable. I just knew exactly how the movie was going to end when it got to that scene where they were all surrounding him, and surprise surprise I was right. Yawn.
I know they'll make these movies forever cause it's a cashcow, but it's really hard to make a movie series about a superhuman who is invincible, immortal and has literally no weaknesses interesting. Every movie is "this time we're gonna kill Michael forever!" and they always fail. it's like gee, I wonder who's gonna win. is it going to be the mortal humans equipped with baseball bats, or the man with super strength who can not die. Hmm I wonder.
You'd think they'd start to throw in something to really spice the franchise up...I felt like they hinted at it a lot in this movie, I thought him taking off his mask was gonna be like this really grand reveal and we were going to like learn something new about him and he was going to become a more fleshed out, complex and interesting character, but alas. It ended up kinda being nothing. Even if fans would hate it cause it'd be a departure from the og, you'd think they'd do something to make the series fresh...add a character stronger than Michael (or at least as strong as him), reveal something new about him thats like a plot twist, actually have him die....If "Halloween Ends" is genuinely the last movie in the franchise (but i dont have high hopes) I hope we'll finally get an intriguing ending to the series. If it's legit just everyone thinking they killed Michael but then he gets back up and kills them all and then it zooms in on his mask while the theme song plays, I am never going to feel happiness ever again.
college + work is such a brutal, exhausting combination. it was bad my freshman year and now it's worse because my freshman year classes were so much less work than what im taking now, my japanese class has a quiz/exam every week and 10 pages of homework do every week, my graphic design class requires two to three assignments a week, my 3 hour long sculpture class sucks the life out of me because i hate sculpting and the project we're working on right now literally brings me to tears, and my art history class...is actually the least amount of work, god bless that one.
finding time for studying and homework feels impossible because im either in class, at work, or trying to get 8 hours of sleep. i leave work, go to class, go home to do an assignment or two, and pass out. this is my entire life. and im behind in nearly all my classes. i've started skipping them here and there for the sake of my mental health...went from magna cum laude to "Cs get degrees".
i just kind of accepted this as life, but because of the new animal crossing update all my friends are playing it again and theyre like "cafe! there's something cute in my shop rn if you wanna come get it!" "cafe lets visit your island sometime!" "cafe do you want this recipe?" and it makes me so sad because i literally do not have the time in the day to set aside to play animal crossing with them. my life is work, class, household tasks, sleep, and the occasional 10 minutes i can put aside to mindlessly browse social media so i can shut my brain off for a little bit.
it's so much. i wish college was free and i didnt have to worry about meeting specific qualifications to get loans so i could just do 1 class a semester and graduate at 30. this is too much.
sorry to be a negative nancy but i have so much stress acne and im losing a lot of hair and having panic attacks very frequently and i just needed to vent my exhaustion
i took a week off last week and that was a nice break, but it's back to the grind now and the grind sucks
i lost my medication (i think it fell in the trash?) so my acne has come back very strong. i have a lot of zits and a huge cystic breakout on my chin. i am so sad again i was enjoying not having acne for a few months