cafenurse
Reaction score
6,024

Joined

Profile posts Latest activity Postings Awarded medals Usernames About

  • i have a lot of messages on here i have to respond to but ive been super busy. i promise im not ignoring anyone i just havent had time to thoroughly reply yet '^_^
    since i changed my major midway through the semester im having such a hard time finding motivation to finish my classes. they arent required anymore so im like "this feels pointless", but like, I don't wanna ruin my GPA. siiigh
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    Is there a withdraw period? I know some schools will let you withdraw with a W still showing up on your transcript until the middle or end of November. It's not harmless, but it doesn't hit your GPA NEARLY as hard as failing those classes.
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    sadly, i missed the withdraw period cry. it ended a week ago, but i wasnt sure what i was gonna do with my major a week ago since i was waiting on an email from my advisor, who apparently checks her emails once a month :ring_lili:
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    Then I say take it easy and push through (which... kinda sound like oxymorons, but to hell with it). You've got just over a month left. You've made it this far, and you're a badass babe who can conquer and overcome! Focus on passing rather than excelling, because a low C or high D can be brought up fairly easily once you're in classes that don't weigh you down as much.
    i think sometimes people in the voice synth community forget that just because a song uses a voice synth doesnt mean the artist wrote the lyrics to be from the synth's point of view. sometimes artists write lyrics that are essentially words coming from their mouths, but for whatever reason they choose they have a synth sing it instead (like, for example, i can't sing). But it doesnt mean that everytime they make miku sing a song they wrote that they're writing about mikus thoughts and actions
    now that ive changed my major away from graphic design i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders....no more worrying about a portfolio, no more 6 hours a week studio art classes, no more asynchronous online classes cause the department doesnt have enough staff, no more unhelpful advisors who forget i made appointments with them....ahhh college is looking up !
    accidently ordered the wrong edition of a book and FOOLISHLY opened the package to see if there was a return label in there (there wasnt) so now instead of returning to sender for free I have to pay for shipping for my return sigh
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    How much is the shipping?? I can’t give much but I can at least help a little!
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    It's okay peaches, don't worry about it! Though I appreciate your offer so much! <3 I decided that since the book was fairly inexpensive as far as textbooks go so I'm just gonna take the L and keep it, maybe take it to one of those sell-your-textbooks stores to make a couple bucks back on it. My work schedule conflicts with the hours post offices are open so badly that it's always a nightmare trying to go there for any reason anyway. >_<
    when i was young i just thought vocaloids would last forever, but now that we're getting to a point where some of them will run out of activation codes at some point, i guess i should start getting the older ones ive always wanted huh....
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    realistically, the only ones i can think of that i really want that im worried about disappearing are sweet ann and prima.
    I used to have a really long vocaloid wishlist, but I don't really feel the need to get much more anymore. I rarely cover anything and I tend to use gumi for all the original stuff I'm working on because she's the most versatile english voicebank I have.
    I think my biggest want is I want to get the boxed version of Lily so I can display her in my room. Other than that I don't actually care for boxes because I have a habit of losing/breaking my things.
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    It's certainly not a bad idea. Piko was sort of a wake-up call for me and I've since collected just about all of the V2s I've wanted. I'd especially recommend grabbing any V2 Engloids you might want, because I can see those being retired earlier than the Japanese banks.
    parallax_fifths
    parallax_fifths
    I see song lyrics:

    When I was young
    I thought vocaloids would last forever
    But we're at a point
    Where activation codes are running out

    I guess I should
    Start getting the older ones I've wanted

    Etc, etc...
    very frustrated because my partner for a big japanese project im doing decided to drop the class the week before the project is due so im essentially doing it on my own now. rad
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    hes a close friend of mine so i dont want to complain about it too much irl, but im rolling my eyes hard because this is like the third year of college where he's given up and dropped all of his classes and im having a hard time staying empathetic. i kinda understand where hes coming from because college is haaard and it suuucks, but im a little burned he screwed me over like this.
    i saw the new halloween movie tonight but didnt really like it, which is a shame because the first halloween is one of my favorite movies, and I thought the 2018 one was actually pretty good. I found this one kinda boring tbh :/ Here's my slightly spoilery review of the movie (though to be honest, if youve seen one halloween youve seen them all, so is it really spoilers?)
    I definitely felt like the movie relied far too much on the shock value of blood and gore to make it "scary", but really it ended up just kind of making it cheesy. The original movie was able to make Michael intimidating, ominous and scary effortlessly. This new one lacks the atmosphere the first one has and tries to make up for it with over-the-top-gruesome deaths, but it ends up holding the film down.
    Also, this movie kills off way too many characters. Like basically all of them. When you learn pretty quickly on to not get attached to any character because they won't last long, you end up having like no attachment to the movie and you just spend the entire runtime watching people you don't care about run around. It makes it so bland and predictable. I just knew exactly how the movie was going to end when it got to that scene where they were all surrounding him, and surprise surprise I was right. Yawn.

    I know they'll make these movies forever cause it's a cashcow, but it's really hard to make a movie series about a superhuman who is invincible, immortal and has literally no weaknesses interesting. Every movie is "this time we're gonna kill Michael forever!" and they always fail. it's like gee, I wonder who's gonna win. is it going to be the mortal humans equipped with baseball bats, or the man with super strength who can not die. Hmm I wonder.
    You'd think they'd start to throw in something to really spice the franchise up...I felt like they hinted at it a lot in this movie, I thought him taking off his mask was gonna be like this really grand reveal and we were going to like learn something new about him and he was going to become a more fleshed out, complex and interesting character, but alas. It ended up kinda being nothing. Even if fans would hate it cause it'd be a departure from the og, you'd think they'd do something to make the series fresh...add a character stronger than Michael (or at least as strong as him), reveal something new about him thats like a plot twist, actually have him die....If "Halloween Ends" is genuinely the last movie in the franchise (but i dont have high hopes) I hope we'll finally get an intriguing ending to the series. If it's legit just everyone thinking they killed Michael but then he gets back up and kills them all and then it zooms in on his mask while the theme song plays, I am never going to feel happiness ever again.


    The soundtrack was immaculate though!
    college + work is such a brutal, exhausting combination. it was bad my freshman year and now it's worse because my freshman year classes were so much less work than what im taking now, my japanese class has a quiz/exam every week and 10 pages of homework do every week, my graphic design class requires two to three assignments a week, my 3 hour long sculpture class sucks the life out of me because i hate sculpting and the project we're working on right now literally brings me to tears, and my art history class...is actually the least amount of work, god bless that one.
    finding time for studying and homework feels impossible because im either in class, at work, or trying to get 8 hours of sleep. i leave work, go to class, go home to do an assignment or two, and pass out. this is my entire life. and im behind in nearly all my classes. i've started skipping them here and there for the sake of my mental health...went from magna cum laude to "Cs get degrees".

    i just kind of accepted this as life, but because of the new animal crossing update all my friends are playing it again and theyre like "cafe! there's something cute in my shop rn if you wanna come get it!" "cafe lets visit your island sometime!" "cafe do you want this recipe?" and it makes me so sad because i literally do not have the time in the day to set aside to play animal crossing with them. my life is work, class, household tasks, sleep, and the occasional 10 minutes i can put aside to mindlessly browse social media so i can shut my brain off for a little bit.

    it's so much. i wish college was free and i didnt have to worry about meeting specific qualifications to get loans so i could just do 1 class a semester and graduate at 30. this is too much.

    sorry to be a negative nancy but i have so much stress acne and im losing a lot of hair and having panic attacks very frequently and i just needed to vent my exhaustion
    i took a week off last week and that was a nice break, but it's back to the grind now and the grind sucks
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    :akasakiminato_lili: You can do it! I desperately wanna give you more than that, but honestly it's tough, and there's no sugar-coating that. I want you to know we're here for you, and it WILL get better. It'll suck for a while, butt it will get better, and I know that for a fact.
    MagicalMiku
    MagicalMiku
    we are always here for you:miku_winter_lili: college life can be so stressful, especially when is not free, but as Wind and Peaches have said, it will get better each day that passes♪ sometimes I wish too a day was made of more hours, it feels like a puzzle to put all those tasks into 24 hours, but I also realized that our own health is the most important thing and we must avoid that feeling of being overwhelmed by all the tasks: facing one by one little by little is the best, and you'll overcome everything, i'm sure (❁´◡`❁)
    it also helps to make a diary: try to make a diary of your days for about 2 weeks, from the moment you wake up till you go to bed, you will be able to check perfectly all hours and tasks and organize them according to your needs and feelings. and yes, you can write on the diary also how you feel, how was your day, that really helps a lot (●'◡'●) I know you can do it, and I know you are the best in your class!! ヾ(´▽`)ノ
    my Miku wishes you the best too:miku_sakura_lili:<3
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    <3 <3 thanks yall, i appreciate yall letting me vent and being so supportive!
    im trying to start typing just one space between sentences instead of two because i learned that youre not supposed to do two anymore... but it's a hard habit to unlearn </3
    Kazumimi
    Kazumimi
    Really??? Looks like I'm in trouble now, haha. I always double space after every sentence--it doesn't read right for me any other way, haha.
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    i was always taught thats how youre supposed to do it, but when i was in high school someone caught me doing it and was like "??? no?" so we googled it and it was normal during the days of using typewriters, but in modern text you're not supposed to. but honestly?? does it really matter?? my double space can be pried from my cold, dead hands
    Kazumimi
    Kazumimi
    Double space gang for life!!!
    suddenly ive really had the urge to get back into reading. i havent casually read a book for fun in years. i want to go to a barnes and noble and get a good ol' YA romance novel again.
    uncreepy
    uncreepy
    This is kind of random, I don't know if your location is the same, but my state (Wisconsin) has the library system connected to Overdrive (so you log in with your library card ID thing). You can rent books for free on there (sometimes you have to wait your turn if the book is really popular). My sister uses Overdrive to rent audio books from the library but they also have normal digital books and magazines and stuff.
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    thats neat! ill look it up! i miss the days where i went to the library. libraries are cool.
    i lost my medication (i think it fell in the trash?) so my acne has come back very strong. i have a lot of zits and a huge cystic breakout on my chin. i am so sad again i was enjoying not having acne for a few months :kaito_lili:
    • Sad
    Reactions: patuk and WyndReed
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    yeaah i have to cave in and call my derm about it haha...i was avoiding it cause i HATE phone calls but then the cystic breakout on my chin appeared </3 so i can avoid it no longer
    peaches2217
    peaches2217
    You can do it! Reward yourself well after the fact too. You deserve it!
    patuk
    patuk
    I can relate to not liking phone calls 😩 you can do it!
    i love crystal castles but man their first album is SO hit or miss...it's either a total banger or it gives me a raging headache
    cafenurse
    cafenurse
    i take it back its not just album 1. "doe deer" just came on and my head hurts
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…
  • Loading…