I know I should be grateful for any fans of any of my fics, but... I used to write a lot of Kung Fu Panda fics. Trying to clear out my Docs, I posted some of the less reprehensible ones to my Ao3, and meanwhile I pour my heart and soul into my current, primarily Vocaloid-related works. (Dorky, I know, but still.) My 2- and 3-year-old KFP fics get so much love while I've only got one or two readers for my current stuff. I get excited when I get an email from Ao3, and then it's just kudos for something I haven't touched since 2016.
Logically, I know it's just differing logistics: I write for a really rare pairing nowadays while my KFP stuff is primarily for a ship 75% of that fandom ships. But since I rely entirely on external sources of validation to assess my self-worth, my mind has warped this issue into "You used to be good at writing, but now you've lost that talent; that's why no one loves your current works."
I try not to think that way, but what if that really is the truth? Writing is the only thing I'm any good at. I don't wanna lose that, too.
Anywho, if anyone's read this, have a Mei-chan of appreciation.