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  • Something bad happened in my family, I won't be active very much while dealing with it.
    oh my god you are born on Christmas?

    Merry Christmas Birthday!
    uncreepy
    uncreepy
    Yes, thank you for the birthday wish. Have a happy holiday!
    I feel like a rump because I still don't have the mental stamina to translate or draw. When I try to translate something seriously, my head starts pounding and I close it. I feel no joy from drawing and close it quickly. I have just been watching A LOT of anime and Japanese YouTube between homework. It's gradually getting better each day with getting used to the "new me", but I wish I had more drive to make things right now.
    I got medicine a few days ago, but I am having a hard time with the side effects. Yesterday I kept falling asleep while sitting up at the computer every couple of minutes. Today I just sat and stared for most of the day & it took 5 hours to do 1 simple task because I keep zoning out. I keep yawning every couple minutes, so it feels like my jaw is going to pop off. I tried coffee today and yesterday, but it's a tiredness that can't be awoken. (I literally see a cloud over my eyes, which feel like they are crossing.) It's frustrating being so tired out, I keep asking myself "Where am I?" when I realize I am staring at nothing.

    It's hopefully only going to last 1 week for my body to adjust. I feel better emotionally (don't feel sad/anxious/self-hating and stressed, I just feel neutral nothing). But it'll take 4 weeks to fully kick in, so I wonder how I will be by then.
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    patuk
    patuk
    It's hard now but after the adjusting period it will be well worth it :ia_ani_lili:
    Can you all please vote in this poll so I can sleep at night? (The 1st post in the thread is the poll, 2nd post is reference pics of Fukase.)

    uncreepy
    uncreepy
    Thanks for sharing your votes in the comments, I appreciate it. I feel like I see a lot of fan art of him with burns, but the poll is very mixed right now. Fukase having white skin makes it ambiguous, some people stick with that, but others give him peach skin and then they have to decide what color to make the "scars" (fleshy or robotic or something else). I get horror vibes from his art, so corruption makes sense to me, but some people associate androids with Vocaloid, so that makes sense as well.
    uncreepy
    uncreepy
    @Tema Dang, I really like your idea! I like the idea that other people in his world have to deal with that same problem.
    ThomasWilde
    ThomasWilde
    Thanks! (My brain started getting carried away with it and building avatars/characters for the other band members as fellow survivors sksjdjdj)
    Gosh, Voidol is "out of stock" on Amazon for some reason, even though it's a download. I tried to buy it on Rakuten but it gave me an error, apparently Japanese users can't buy it there, either. Somehow I saw 2 people who bought Yukari and were streaming with it, though. I am dying, I just want the Voidol VST even though it's WAY too expensive, but I've been watching Voidol for over a year and wanna treat myself to something moronic for working hard at school all month/no days off.
    I got the diagnosis, but I have no clue what to do now. It took over a month and finally getting it was so underwhelming... All that trouble to basically be told what I already knew, except for the important part. I will have to email my question in a day or two after receiving the paperwork. (Sorry for being vague, but I'm not ready to talk about it properly.) I feel like I wasted a month being very sad/wishing for help and getting diagnosed basically didn't change anything. S:>
    I kind of want to import Recotte Studio from AHS (want the phsyical ver that comes with a book), but I don't know how to order from AHS to get a physical. Can anyone help me with instructions? Do I need a forwarding service?
    Rylitah
    Rylitah
    What static-oceans said, but I have a lot of experience with ordering from AHS myself since group orders are hard to come by (iirc only me and Celestrai have ever done them in the past, I usually only do them at the end of the year during AHS' New Years sale though -- though I think that's also when Celestrai does hers, haha).

    AHS ships via EMS, I didn't know if they were still shipping despite Japan Post not shipping to the states rn, but I haven't heard of anyone not receiving their packages lately? They may have switched to DHL for now, but I don't know that for sure. Otherwise, using a forwarding service is perfectly fine too though with how expensive DHL is it might not make too much of a difference vs just using AHS' international shipping. If you go with AHS' international shipping, you need to add this to your cart, there's further instructions in the item description. If you decide to use a forwarding service, you and PM/DM me for further help if you need it 0:
    uncreepy
    uncreepy
    Thanks, you two! I really appreciate the help/instructions. I still have to try out the demo before I buy (just been SO BUSY with school that I haven't had time), then I will hopefully take the plunge and order it.
    static-oceans
    static-oceans
    I'm pretty sure they're shipping through Fedex! (I honestly expected DHL too)
    I have no clue what's being alluded to on Twitter recently (regarding something someone did in the Vocaloid fandom that is stirring up emotions), but it seems like people who are already in a dark place emotionally lately/don't want to be triggered should avoid Twitter for a while.

    I really don't want to know and will be following my own advice. S:
    I had a bad dream that I got contacted by an overly cheerful VocaVerse mod telling me I was going to be banned in a few minutes for 1) calling people nicknames (ex: calling RazzyRu "Razz") and 2) posting after my own posts to add details to a thread instead of waiting for someone else to comment before writing again. My eyes shot open in a cold sweat after I wrote a PM back in the dream attempting to defend myself. LOL
    I had plans relating to replying to stuff/posting things on VocaVerse and that definitely did not happen today. Today didn't go as planned at all, actually. orz Sorry about that, hopefully tomorrow.

    Honestly, I've just been having an immensely difficult time concentrating lately due to some irl stresses and being worried about having to go talk to a doctor soon, I feel like my mind is chaos and I keep leaving the computer/having a hard time holding conversations on the computer/losing track of time. Not productive at all these last few days, even though I know what I should be doing. (I just want to say stuff's going on, I guess, I'm trying not to be rude on Discord by leaving repeatedly, but I am not myself lately. I think it will be better when I talk to the doctor, though.)
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    uncreepy
    uncreepy
    As a side vent, I feel so horrible, today we found out the neighbor girl that used to live by us (she came from a troubled family and they moved last year a few minutes away) went missing at the start of the month and it's probably human trafficking related. I can't believe it, she was only 15. I feel so bad for her little brother.
    mobius017
    mobius017
    Sorry to hear you're not doing well. I hope you feel better soon!
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