Dunno a nice way to say this, but I feel discouraged. I have fun making test songs, but then when I get to the part of combining the singing/instruments, everything falls apart because I can't mix.
I don't know where to start learning, all the vocab is difficult and feels like a maze keeping me trapped in one place. I've been making my own original instrumentals in addition to covers, but without good mixing... everyone hates the results because it sounds like cats yowling in an alley. (Nobody likes how I tune except me, too, so that doesn't help me not feel like the worst's biggest dunce.)
I feel like I have to keep my music projects secret and stop sharing them because they literally bring people pain (to their ears). And just wait to post them until I learn basic mixing, however many months that'll take... This stinks.
No one can even help me with advice because mixing doesn't make sense to me. Or the people I try to ask for help don't know how to mix or just plain won't help. It's not like I can pay someone to mix for me for every single little short project, either.